Trouble (Tsuzuki/Hisoka nc17) wip

Yami no Kaze · Trouble (Tsuzuki/Hisoka nc17) wip

title: Trouble
Genra: Roamnce/Drama
warnings: explicit yaoi
summery: Tuzuki is happy that he was able to convince Hisoka that sex wasn't a bad thing. The blond enjoyed it...but he's developed a taste for something unuual that gets Tsuzuki in big trouble. Can Hisoka fess up in time, or will the wild eyed shinigami go to his second death to prove his love?

Trouble

"See..."

Tsuzuki whispered softly that morning as he kissed Hisoka's ear to wake him.

"You liked that didn't you?"

Hisoka took a deep breath as he woke slowly and streached, shoving Tsuzuki's head away as he sat up.

"Yes...I enjoyed it. But that's not exactly the way I wanted you to wake me."

Tsuzuki sat there for a moment as he blinked his eyes open and then blushed suddenly as he noticed the blanket in Hisoka's lap.

He was still naked and slightly aroused again.

Hisoka looked away as he covered himself with his hands.

"It happens every morning stop staring!"

Tsuzuki blushed more and looked away.

"Hisoka..."

Hiska closed his eyes only to open them again.

Damn his teenaged body...

"If you...want to do it again..."

Tsuzuki wasn't sure until the image of the blond's pale flesh tinted pink and his mouth agape in a pleasured cry, poped into his head and he loked away.

"Well...not if you don't want to..."

Hisoka looked up. He hated to admit it, but he did.

"I hear it's...different in the shower and we need to take one anyway..."

Tsuzuki looked up at him.

"I haven't ever had it in the shower before...i guess that would be a first for me too."

Hisoka nodded and moved to stand.

"Just...don't look at me until we're in the shower."

Tsuzuki nodded and closed his eyes.

Hisoka made his way into the shower and turned it on.

Tsuzuki followed slowly, feeling a little uneasy.

Hisoka seemed to be in a bad mood and he wondered if the blond was just saying yes to make him happy.

"Hisoka?"

Hisoka was facing the wall under the water and Tsuzuki recognized the motion of his arm.

He hadn't thought it was that hard to begin with but he knew if Hisoka was doing that, it had to be pretty hard.

"Let me help you...are you sure you want to go all the way again so soon?"

Hisoka nodded as he turned to Tsuzuki, seeming to read his mind.

"I'd tell you no if i didn't want to...i just wanted you to wake me...differently."

Tsuzuki kissed him softly.

"I'll make it up to you tomorrow k?"

He nodded and sighed softly as Tsuzuki gently took hold of his hardened member.

"I didn't think you'd be this hard..."

Hisoka blushed both from Tsuzuki's words and the pleasure as Tsuzuki's hand tentativly slid up and down.

"nn...Tsuzuki..."

He closed his eyes.

"Don't you...remember being a teenager? it's...my body..."

Tsuzuki frowned and kissed him again.

"You get these every morning?"

Hisoka nodded.

"That's why i'm late occasionally. they get like this and they're hard to get rid of. I'm ready though...so let's get started before we're late."

Tsuzuki nodded and turned him to face the wall agin.

"Hold on to the bar."

Hisoka shook head and grabbed a towel to kneel on.

Tsuzuki thought this was a little odd but went along with it.

Before long Tsuzuki was ontop of the blond, making him moan loudly with every thrust.

He was very surprised how fast he'd taken to it.

His own first encounter with a man had been less than pleasurable but Hisoka seemed to be in a great deal of pleasure.

He wasn't sure if he should be proud of himself or worried that Hisoka just wasn't telling him when it hurt.

"Hisoka..."

He breathed out the name as he closed his eyes and thrust his head back.

"I'm cuming soon..."

Hisoka moaned out softly.

"Not...inside...please!"

He sounded scared at this and Tsuzuki pumped a few more times before pulling out and spilled into the drain.

He sat back with a soft moan watching Hisoka play with himself and soon follow with a cry.

Hisoka sat up dizzily and out of breath.

Tsuzuki pulled him back to lean his head on his chest.

"Hisoka..."

Hisoka closed his eyes with a soft sigh.

"hmm?"

Tsuzuki kissed the top of his wet head and smiled.

"I love you."

Hisoka smiled as well and snuggled closer.

"Let's call in sick."

Tsuzuki chuckled.

"Can't. we're going on a big case tomorrow."

Hisoka sighed deeply and gave his legs a moment to strenthen before standing and turning off the water.

"Thank you."

Tsuzuki stood, looking confused as he wrapped his arms around the blond from behind.

"For what?"

Hisoka turned to him and kissed him softly.

"Helping me of course. Everything. Helping me this morning but mostly helping me over my fear. I'm thity two and i was still terrified of sex. it hurt so much the first time that i was afraid that's what it would always feel like. you have no idea how scared out of my mind i was last night."

Tsuzuki frowned.

"if i'd known that i wouldn't have continued...i'm sorry..."

Hisoka shook his head.

"i'm glad you did. i'm okay now. after a few minutes i was perfectly fine...when i realized that it didn't hurt beause you were making sure it wouldn't."

Tsuzuki stared into Hisoka's eyes for a moment before kissing him deeply.

"I just want you to know that i really love you and it's okay if you don't want to anymore. or if you change your mind...even in the middle."

Hisoka nodded.

"I promise."

~~

The case, to Hisoka's distaste and fear, involved a serial rapist who'd been killed by one of his victims and hadn't moved on, attacking more women.

Tsuzuki frowned as he looked over at Hisoka once they reached the hotel.

"I'm sorry..."

Hisoka looked up at him as he set the bags down.

"It's not your fault. it has to be done and it happened to be in our district."

He swallowed a lump of fear as he tried to believe his own lie at the next words.

"i'll be fine."

but the truth was, he wasn't fine.

in fact it brought up thoughts of Muraki all over again.

and those thoughts made him feel ashamed for having slept with Tsuzuki.

Suddenly something he enjoyed became evil and he felt guilty.

He sighed deeply as he laid down on the bed and closed his eyes.

"Just a little nap..."

Tsuzuki smiled softly and brushed his fingers over the blond strands.

"Sleep. i'll do all the research and wake you when we need to leave."

Hisoka nodded and swiftly fell asleep.

~~

To Hisoka's disappointment it wasn't a pleasent sleep and he woke screaming from a nightmare to Tsuzuki straddling him trying to calm him down or wake him up.

"Hisoka!"

He nearly screamed himself as he struggled with the empath until said blond used a phychic attack on him, screaming a cohearent sentance finally.

"Tsuzuki! Get the hell off!"

Tsuzuki cringed away, chest bleeding and growled at him.

"Are you at least awake now?!"

Hisoka scrambled to his feet but dizzily stumbled and Tsuzuki sighed heavily as Hisoka landed on the floor, panting.

"What happened?"

He was too out of breath to yell anymore.

"I saw you curl up and then you started whimpering and then screaming and i tried to wake you but every time i touched you, you smacked my hand away! at one point you hit your head on the headboard and i was trying to make you at least calm but you wouldn't, even when i got on top of you! what the hell were you dreaming?!"

Tears came to Hisoka's eyes.

"Stop being angry! I thought you were someone else okay i'm sorry!"

He stood and made for the door but Tsuzuki lunged, dragging him to the floor.

"Stay!"

Tsuzuki was more begging than comanding and Hisoka screamed as he once again hit the floor, this time with Tsuzuki's arms around his legs.

"Let go of me!"

Tsuzuki sat up, but pulled Hisoka closer.

"not until you promise you'll stay."

Hisoka stared into his eyes for a moment before looking away.

"fine."

Tsuzuki stood slowly and stared down at his partner who simply lay there panting.

"Tell me what it was about."

Slowly he stood, this time testing his feet to make sure they worked again.

"I'm pretty sure it was just a random nightmare. it's my nerves. i hate cases like this."

Tsuzuki sat down on the bed and Hisoka sat next to him.

"Still...you'll feel better if you tell me about it."

Hisoka frowned.

Tsuzuki would probably over react.

It wasn't Hisoka's fault that he felt like this, if anyone could be blamed it would have to be Muraki.

"Promise me you'll be calm about it."

Tsuzuki's brows furrowed.

"That bad?"

Hisoka looked away.

"not in detail but yes."

Tsuzuki frowned and pulled Hisoka closer, holding him tightly.

"Okay. i promise."

Hisoka sighed and closed his eyes.

"Mostly just flashes. it was something between Muraki and you. Like at one point i saw Muraki's face...but your body. It was concentual but not. I couldn't move, i was tied to the bed and...i liked that. but then at the same time i didn't because it was like i wanted to have sex with him. my mind split then and suddenly i was watching and experiencing at the same time. from the back it was definately you, and i felt better about the want, but from the front it was him and that part of me felt sick."

Tsuzuki bit his lip.

He had no idea what to make of it.

"Maybe...."

He looked away.

"Maybe you weren't as ready as you thought."

He suddenly let go of the blond and leaned back.

"No! That's not it!"

Tsuzuki stared at him.

"I think it is. I told you i didn't want to hurt you."

Hisoka stood, tears brimming in his eyes.

"IDIOT!"

He slapped Tsuzuki across the face.

"I told you to stay calm! i knew you'd over react!"

Tsuzuki looked away.

"i'm not the one yelling."

Hisoka growled and smacked him again.

"I hate you when you're like this! you treat me like a child!"

He again made for the door but again Tsuzuki stopped him.

"I don't treat you like a child Hisoka..."

Before the blond could react, Tsuzuki's arms came around him tightly from behind.

"I wouldn't have made love to you if i thought so."

Hisoka froze.

"Tsuzuki?"

Tsuzuki's hand traveled down slowly to cup the blond's groin.

"Don't ignore it...it's better to do something with it."

Hisoka stilled, beginning to blush.

"How did you know?"

He turned the blond to look at him and kissed him softly.

"i'm sorry okay. i just worry about you. i know you're in your thirties but your body is still so fragile..."

Hisoka's breath caught in his throat as Tsuzuki's hands unbuttoned his pants.

"And to answer you...i noticed when i was on top of you."

In a swift motion he'd pinned the blond on the bed below him.

Hisoka's wide emerald eyes stared up at him.

"You have to learn to speak up Hisoka. if you want me to touch you...to do anything to you....you have to tell me. and you have to tell me no when you don't. this will never work out if you're not open with me."

Hisoka finally found his voice again, feeling slightly dizzy with Tsuzuki's lust.

"Tsuzuki...take me."

There was conviction in his eyes.

"But appologize first."

Tsuzuki kissed him deeply with a heavy sigh.

"I'm sorry i over reacted."

Hisoka felt tears well in his eyes.

"if i really wasn't ready i'd have told you."

Tsuzuki kissed him deeply again.

"okay."

But as Tsuzuki laid there kissing him, Hisoka wasn't sure what he wanted anymore.

Suddenly the idea of sex right now wasn't a pleasent one.

His body screamed for Tsuzuki, but his mind was a thousand miles away.

"Wait..."

He spoke softly as Tsuzuki began to softly rub him.

"What is it?"

He stopped and looked into Hisoka's eyes.

The blond turned his head away.

"I changed my mind...i'd rather take care of it myself."

Tsuzuki blinked but nodded and got up. "See...that wasn't hard was it?"

Hisoka frowned as he stood and grabbed his pants.

"I'm taking a shower."

Tsuzuki didn't say a word as he watched Hisoka disappear into the bathroom and close the door.

Once out of earshot with the water running Hisoka threw up several times before getting into the water.

'Gods...i even feel guilty for masturbating...'

He closed his eyes, tears instantly being washed away with the shower water.

'I hate myself...'

~~

The next day Hisoka sighed deeply as he woke to find himself still in the shower.

He wondered when he'd passed out and why Tsuzuki hadn't come looking for him after an hour or two.

The water was freezing now and he was glad for that as this was the first morning in a very long time that he hadn't woken with a hardon.

He turned the water off and dried with a towel before going out to get a change of clothes and ask Tsuzuki why he cared so much to let him sleep in the shower without even seeing if he was alright.

He got his answer as soon as he laid eyes on the man and growled to himself.

Tsuzuki had obviously taken a trip to the liqure store and was now passed out naked on the bed with a half empty bottle of whisky clutched in his hand.

'Be open with you so when i change my mind you can have an excuse to get trashed? i love you too...'

He pulled his clothes on and decided to do some investigating by himself.

It would teach Tsuzuki a lesson if he woke and there was no sign of the blond.

He grabbed the case file, his briefcase, and what was left of Tsuzuki's money and disappeared from the room.

~~

Hisoka was well aware that the rapist they were looking for was now following him.

He wasn't sure what to do so he began to lead the man back to the hotel so he could try to wake Tsuzuki and end this case.

However he was so focussed on keeping a head of the man that he failed to notice he was lost until he found himself in a diserted and rather dark ally.

He felt paniked as he turned to see the man, an evil grin on his face.

Before he could even scream the man was on him.

His eyes widened as he felt hands come down and undo his pants but this mans lust was so strong that he passed out before anything more could happen.

~~

"HISOKA!"

Tsuzuki was terrified, searching the entire city by foot while elder Gushoshin flew above, following a tracking demon.

Tatsumi had been summoned with Gushoshin when no one reproted back for several hours after they were supposed to.

Tatsumi himself was looking for Hisoka and was the unfortunate one to find him.

"Hisoka!"

He ran down the ally just as the man pulled away from the blond.

Shadows shot up around him, trapping him before he could get away and soon younger gushoshin called for his brother.

they took the man back to Meifu, leaving Tatsumi and Tsuzuki to help Hisoka.

"Hisoka!"

He knelt down, pulling off his jacket to throw over him.

His pants had been pulled off and he had no idea where they were.

He looked up as the tracking demon landed and he sent a message back with it to meet them in Meifu.

Carefully he lifted Hisoka from the ground and they disappeared.

Watari had been notified and had a bed and medical equipment waiting.

He frowned as he saw the blond's condition.

he coldn't tell if the dark splotches on his face were bruises or dirt.

"How did this happen? where was Tsuzuki?"

The anger in Watari's voice was evident as he spoke to Tatsumi.

the secretary frowned as he set the boy down.

"We're dealing with that right now. there are apparently things going on we don't know about. Treat Hisoka quickly and try to get some information before you sedate him again."

Watari nodded.

and shoed everyone out of the room.

He was sure Hisoka would't want anyone else there.

He sighed deeply as he began to examine him.

'When did you start having sex?'

He wondered to himself.

that seemed odd to him, he'd thought Hisoka was straight.

He was partly glad for it though as he was fairly uninjured, just the bruises on his cheeks.

Whoever he'd taken into his bed was pretty big...

He sighed deeply as he grabbed a spunge and water bowl and began to wash the dirt from his body.

He frowned when he made it to the boy's face to find that the bruises there were rather large.

'Who the hell would hit an unconscious victim?! bastard!'

He was gentle washing away the dirt from his face and the water began to wake him.

Quickly Watari covered his lower half with the sheet.

"Ts-zuki?"

He moaned softly and Watari finally figured out who he'd been sleeping with.

that didn't surprise him, Tsuzuki was head over heels with the blond that it was painful to watch him pine over him every day.

"I'll send him in when i'm done. Are you feeling any pain?"

His eyes slid open slowly and he blinked the room into focus before looking over at Watari.

"My head. what happened? what are you doing? Why isn't Tsuzuki here?"

Watari frowned.

"Well actually, he may be in trouble. where was he while you were alone?"

Hisoka sighed.

"I got angry and left to investigate by myself."

Watari stared into his eyes for a moment.

"What happened?"

Hisoka bit his lip.

"you can't tell anyone okay?"

Watari gave him a look.

"Hisoka we have rules and you know that. if Tsuzuki was neglectful in anyway he needs to be punished for it."

Hisoka shook his head.

"i'm not talking about that! just listen!"

Watari sighed.

"if it's personal, i won't tell anyone."

Hisoka closed his eyes.

"Well...you're sort of the doctor around here anyway so i guess you should know. Tsuzuki um...took my virginity a few nights ago. and we're still working out some things in our relationship."

Watari nodded.

"is that what you were fighting about?"

Hisoka frowned and shook his head.

"This is the part i don't want you to tell anyone about...Tsuzuki told me the second time that if i wanted to stop...even in the middle...that he'd stop and it wasn't a problem. So the case was really bothering me. it brought up memories of Muraki and i had this really strange dream. i..."

he blushed.

"woke up aroused and Tsuzuki sort of took advantage of that...but then i changed my mind. he seemed okay with it and i took a shower. but i fell asleep in the shower and i woke up this morning freezing. He never even checked on me. the whole night i was in the shower and he didn't even come in to turn the water off."

Watari frowned.

"Why not?"

Hisoka began to cry at this thought.

"He apparently did have a problem stopping. he went to the damn liqure store and jerked off before passing out from drinking so much!"

Watari sighed deeply.

"i see. you should talk to him about it."

Hisoka nodded and Watari reached into his drawer to pull out a syringe and a bottle of sedative.

"I have some more tests to conduct and i don't think you'll want to be awake for them. please trust me."

Hisoka's eyes widened for a moment.

"He...got to me didn't he?"

Watari nodded.

"i just want to make sure everything's okay. externally you look like hell and if something broke while you were unconscious and didn't heal right there could be complications later. i'm concerned that the bruises on your face haven't healed yet. that suggests a larger problem."

Hisoka nodded.

"okay. but..."

Watari nodded.

"as soon as i'm done. i'll make him feel really guilty before i send him in."

As he spoke he injected the sedative and waited for Hisoka to fall asleep.

'Damn it Tsuzuki...i'm going to have a talk with you...'

~~~

Hisoka woke slowly a few hours later to find himself still in Watari's care but with a guilty looking Tsuzuki standing beside him, watching him sleep.

"Hey..."

Tsuzuki whispered as he reached out and brushed Hisoka's cheek.

"Hey."

Hisoka replied weakly.

"Hisoka...i'm really sorry."

Hisoka closed his eyes again.

"i'm hurt Tsuzuki. i'm not angry."

Tsuzuki frowned, tears coming to his eyes.

"it wasn't you."

Hisoka brushed Tsuzuki's hand away.

"don't lie to me. i'm not going to break up with you yet. i just don't think it's a good idea to have sex anymore."

Tsuzuki blinked.

"but i'm not lieing. it really wasn't you."

Hisoka looked up at him.

"than why were you naked? if it wasn't because i changed my mind. you said yourself it was fine if that happened and then you turn around and pull this?"

Tsuzuki shook his head.

"i promise it wasn't you!"

Hisoka sighed.

"so what was it?"

Tsuzuki looked away.

"i felt like a pervert. here we were on a rapist investigation and i wanted to screw you. it was wrong of me to try to seduce you like that. and then i was glad you'd changed your mind but i was so hard and i felt so guilty for being like that...so i went to the liqure store and got trashed. that's why i was naked, because it took so long to get down again. it wasn't because you didn't want to have sex, please believe me Hisoka! i love you!"

Hisoka was silent for a long moment.

"I see..."

Tsuzuki took his hands and kissed them.

"i mean...if you still don't think it's a good idea that's okay...i just don't want you to think that i don't love you. i want you to know how important you are to me."

He leaned down, not giving Hisoka a chance to speak and kissed him deeply.

It was at this very moment that Tatsumi walked in and Hisoka jolted, shoving Tsuzuki back.

Tsuzuki froze as he saw Tatsumi.

"T-tatsumi-san...wh-what are you doing here?!"

Hisoka sat up, glairing at Tsuzuki.

"I told you i don't like you that way Tsuzuki! Get out!"

Tatsumi growled at Tsuzuki, looking between the two.

"What do you think you're doing Tsuzuki? i came to see if Hisoka was alright."

Tsuzuki stared at Hisoka, a look of hurt on his face.

"Hisoka...what do you mean...we've been..."

Then he sighed.

"i'm sorry. i must have been dreaming. it won't happen again."

He left quietly and Tatsumi sat down next to Hisoka.

"Are you alright? He didn't hurt you did he? i can't believe he would do something like that."

Hisoka sighed deeply and nodded.

"i'm fine. Tsuzuki i'm sure is just very stressed out. he was really worried about me. i shouldn't have run off alone i...hope there won't be any conciquences though..."

Tatsumi frowned.

"under the circumstances no, but only because your partner was being neglegent. you've been let off with a warning, but next time you won't be so lucky. depending on the infraction you could recieve no less than forty two hours solitary confinement, and if the infraction is great enough, you could be sent to your own trial."

Hisoka's defiant additude reared it's head as he spoke.

"i already know where i'm going so it's not like it'd be a horrible thing. unlike Tsuzuki i owe nothing."

Tatsumi sighed.

he would try to be nice becase of what had happened.

"That isn't the point Kurosaki-kun...and you know it."

He stood.

"anyway. i have to be going. i'll come back after work and check on you."

Hisoka nodded and let the secretary leave.

After a few minutes, Tsuzuki reappeared.

"Hisoka..."

Hisoka looked up.

"I'm sorry Tsuzuki..."

Tsuzuki frowned.

"i guess i understand. everyone thinks you're straight. you still love me though right?"

Hisoka nodded and opened his arms to Tsuzuki.

"We're alone now for a few hours. we'll forget about all of it right? i appologized, and so did you. we just forget about it and have a nice day?"

Tsuzuki nodded and sat beside him, holding him close before kissing him softly.

"i love you so much Hisoka."

Hisoka kissed him back, wrapping his arms around Tsuzuki's neck.

When he broke away the whisper Tsuzuki heard both turned him on and scared the hell out of him.

"Tsuzuki...make love to me."

Tsuzuki's body jolted, his first impression to run away.

How could he ask that now?!

"But Hisoka...you've just been ra"

He was cut short by a slender finger and piercing emeraled eyes.

"I was asleep. i don't remember. i felt no pain then, i feel no pain now. and dispite being so damned angry at you this morning...you comfort me. please Tsuzuki...take away his feelings. replace them with your own."

As he spoke these words his hand dipped into Tsuzuki's pants and the man could no longer say no.

Soft fingers worked their way down, bringing him up.

A soft moan escaped his lips and he quickly pulled the sheets down to notice that Hisoka was almost fully erect.

He went down, kissing the blond's stomach before covering the throbing head with his mouth.

Hisoka clutched tightly onto Tsuzuki's which caused a chain reaction and before he knew it Hisoka had cum, without even a cry.

Tsuzuki grinned as he licked the blond clean.

He felt confident this was a product of Hisoka being inexperienced.

"You're sweet."

He licked his lips and worked his way to Hisoka's mouth.

Hisoka undid his pants and slid them down.

"Sit up a bit."

Hisoka did as he was told and Tsuzuki leaned back.

"I don't think that will work. we really need something else."

Tsuzuki glanced around the room.

finally he spotted the bottle of water he'd brought in earlier that day.

He took the opportunity of getting off the bed to pull off his pants and shoes the whole way.

He crossed quickly, heart racing.

This could get them into so much trouble...but he couldn't say no.

He took a towel from by the sink and went back to the bed.

"Not as good as the real stuff but it'll be okay."

Hisoka didn't really care if there was pain right now.

He just wanted the dirty feeling to end and he was sure that an act of love would replace the feelings of lust that reverberated through his body.

Tsuzuki poured the water all over himself, making sure it was slick before even attempting to enter the blond.

'condom...'

He frowned at this.

He knew Hisoka wouldn't want him cumming inside but he also didn't have a place for it to go when he was done without leaving evidence.

"Hisoka..."

Hisoka seemed to read his mind.

"You swallowed for me...i'll swallow for you."

Tsuzuki wasn't at all sure why Hisoka was so insistant but he complied anyway.

He found it easy to slide in and that made him feel a bit better.

Hisoka closed his eyes as Tsuzuki began to pump, and raised his hands above his head.

"hold me down."

He almost begged this and Tsuzuki again complied though was slightly disturbed.

The action of holding him to the bed suddenly made him a bit harder, in turn he pushed faster and harder, watching, only half concerned as the blond's delicate body jerked below him.

Something else that concerned him was the lack of Hisoka's vocalizing.

Usually he couldn't stop him from moaning even if he wanted to and the first time it was out right cries.

'Calm...'

he thought to himself.

'Hisoka's not stupid. if he moans or cries loud enough we'll get caught...'

He was still unsettled by this.

he leaned down and gently bit Hisoka's colar bone, provoking a whimper.

Some noise...some noise other than the creaking of the bed and the sound of his balls slapping against Hisoka's.

Suddenly and without warning, he came and Hisoka sighed.

"Help me to the bathroom when you're done..."

Tsuzuki frowned.

"I'm sorry..."

Hisoka shrugged.

"I just don't know how to get rid of it that's all..."

Tsuzuki pulled away and pulled his pants and shoes back on.

"it's okay. i'll show you."

After letting Hisoka relax a minute he helped the blond up and to the bathroom that was in the infirmery for patiants.

"Hisoka, i'm really sorry."

Hisoka looked up at him.

"come on, you said you'd help me right? if you're not backing out of that you have no reason to appologize. i'm just a neat freak. It was unprepared for so once or twice isn't a big deal."

Tsuzuki nodded and closed the door behind them, kissing him softly.

~~

After Tsuzuki had taken him back to bed Hisoka had fallen asleep and Tsuzuki had no choice but to leave.

He had work to get done and no one knew he'd gone to see Hisoka, or even left his office for that matter.

Hisoka woke a few hours later with a stomach ache.

He was thankful for Tatsumi poking his head in.

"Hey."

Hisoka sat up a little.

"Tatsumi...can you help me to the bathroom.. i think i have to throw up."

Tatsumi frowned and hurried to his side.

They made it to the bathroom in the nick of time and the secretary sighed softly.

"I'll call Watari..."

He helped Hisoka to the sink to rinse his mouth when he noticed something in the trash.

"No...I'm fine. I'm just..."

He stumbled dizzily and Tatsumi frowned as he caught the boy.

"What's wrong?"

Hisoka sighed and closed his eyes.

Sex had just supressed the feeling.

"I may not have felt anything physically but he left a hell of a lot of emotional baggage."

This was only a half truth.

He'd thrown up out of guilt.

He'd begun to feel ashamed for having slept with Tsuzuki right after he'd done it and it had just come to a head.

Tatsumi picked up Hisoka and carried him back to the bed, noting for a moment the empty water bottle on the bedside table and the still wet cloth half hidden under the bed.

"Hisoka, are you sure you're okay? I should call Watari anyway."

Hisoka sighed softly, he was probably right.

He nodded.

"k. thanks."

He closed his eyes, not wanting to look at Tatsumi.

He'd seen the bottle and the towel and he hadn't thought Tatsumi would look in the trash to see a few paper towels stained with Tsuzuki's seed.

The secretary picked up the phone and within a few seconds after hanging up, Watari was beside Hisoka.

Quickly Tatsumi was ushered out of the room and Watari looked over at the other blond with a raised eye brow.

"Tsuzuki came to visit?"

Hisoka bit his lip.

"How the hell did you know that?!"

Watari sighed softly.

"Don't worry about that. just be glad i was where i was when i found out..."

Hisoka looked away.

"Sorry..."

Watari frowned.

"Whatever. you know the rules. I won't go over them again. just don't get caught okay?"

Hisoka nodded and Watari closed his eyes for a moment, taking a deep breath.

"Anyway, I'm concerned that you threw up. that could indicate something is broken..."

Hisoka shook his head as Watari began kneeding at his abdomen.

"It was my guilt okay...i won't do it again. I was feeling really bad. i thought that if Tsuzuki's emotions were around me and...well just in the nice way, that his emotions would go away. but they didn't. and then i just felt guilty."

Watari looked into his eyes for a moment.

"Hisoka...i wanted to break this to you slowly..."

His eyes widened.

"What?!"

Watari looked away.

"we may have to do surgery. it wasn't a good idea to do this so soon. When we brought you in there was evidence to suggest that he..."

He stopped, fists clenching.

"That he put more than just his penis into you."

At this thought Hisoka scrambled from the bed and watari sighed deeply as he helped Hisoka make it back to the toilet.

When they were at the sink and Watari was helping him rinse out his mouth he wrapped his arms around him tightly.

"The fact that you're still weak is what's concerning me. you should have been up and out of here hours ago."

Hisoka closed his eyes.

"I can't stand up straight or lay completely flat. it hurts."

Watari frowned, carrying him back to the bed.

"Do i have your concent to operate?"

Hisoka nodded.

He trusted Watari.

"We'll do some x-rays first. and then go from there."

Hisoka caughed a few times and Watari handed him what was left in the water bottle.

After drinking it he was able to talk though not well.

"What do you think is...in there?"

Watari shook his head.

"i have no idea. i've begun looking over the medical reports and some of the women were found to have crystal rods. i'm not at all sure why though. it's possible that could have happened to you. we have no idea what effects it could have on you so we need to take it out quickly."

Hisoka nodded and Watari started the iv to put him back to sleep for a while.

~~

When Hisoka came to again he was in a different part of the infirmery.

the surgery recovery room.

Watari was wearing a pair of medical gloves, holding a rather long crystal rod up into the light to examine it.

"Watari?"

His voice was soft.

Watari set it back into the tray and walked over to him.

"Do you feel okay?"

He shook his head.

"I'm still really tired. but it doesn't hurt anymore."

Watari took a dep breath.

"We're still trying to find out what it was there for, but I was right."

Hisoka closed his eyes, wishing away a wave of sickness.

"Damn it..."

He moaned.

Watari sighed and grabbed the puke bag he was almost sure Hisoka was going to need and a bottle of cold water.

"It's okay Hisoka. you should be fine now once the sedative wears off."

The blond threw up a few times, wondering how there was anything left in his stomach.

it was mostly bile and water.

Watari waited until he was done and threw the bag away.

"I'll call for Tsuzuki. he's out in the waiting room."

Hisoka nodded as he slowly and shakily sipped at the water.

Watari left the room for a moment and returned with a tearful Tsuzuki at his heels.

"Hisoka...are you okay?"

Hisoka nodded, opening his arms and Tsuzuki all but ran to him, holdinging him tightly.

"I'm so sorry!"

Hisoka sighed deeply.

"It's okay now Tsuzuki. Watari says i'll be okay. I'd like to go home now."

He looked at Watari and the doctor nodded.

"I think that's a good idea. Take a few days off and rest. I'll square things out with Tatsumi and Konoe for you. I'm sure given the circumstances they won't argue."

Hisoka nodded but yawned.

"Thanks."

Tsuzuki brushed away a few stray tears and lifted a bag from beside the bed.

"oh yeah. i forgot. i brought a pair of your pajamas so you don't have to go home in this. do you need help changing?"

Hisoka shook his head.

"I should be able to walk now."

Tsuzuki nodded and handed the bag to him.

"I'll help you to the bathroom than?"

Hisoka shook his head.

"it's okay. really. i can tell already that i can walk normal again...you stay here and see if there's anything special i'm supposed to do at home."

Tsuzuki frowned but nodded and watched at least to make sure Hisoka made it out the door.

Hisoka as he suspected found himself feeling slightly under the weather but able to care for himself again and he was glad for this.

Tsuzuki looked up at the ever silent Watari.

"is something wrong Watari-san?"

Watari looked over at him, anger in his eyes.

"I know what you've been doing to him."

Tsuzuki stood there silently for a long moment.

"Really? did he tell you?"

Watari shook his head.

"not at first. but i am trained as a doctor. So how'd you manage to convince him he was in love with you?"

Tsuzuki scoweled.

"I didn't convince him, he came to me!"

Watari crossed his arms, staring coldly at him.

"i doubt that. and if he did maybe it was to shut you up...or to deal with your emotional baggage. I don't have to be empathic to feel your lust sometimes when you're around him."

Tsuzuki was feeling hurt.

"That's not true! Hisoka never just gives into me. He does things by himself! he'd never humor me for a relationship he didn't feel! he was raped, don't you think he'd always stay away from that kind of relationship unless it really meant something to him?!"

Watari shook his head.

"For your sake i hope it's not true but if it's been bothering him it's possible that he's resimulateing Muraki in his head every time. to devalueize what he did."

Tsuzuki was about to punch his so called best friend when Hisoka came back.

"I'm ready...to go..."

The room was spinning now.

The anger in the room was making him dizzy and he stumbled back against the wall with a soft moan.

Watari was the first to reach him, eyes wide as he failed at catching the blond before he hit the tile.

"Shit!"

Tsuzuki was next, both patting one hand.

"Hisoka?"

Watari spoke softly, patting his cheek.

"Hisoka come on. wake up."

The blond whimpered in his sleep.

"So much...anger."

Watari lifted him from the floor carefully and stood, sighing softly as he carried him back over to the bed.

"Look just promise me something Tsuzuki okay?"

Tsuzuki was still hurt and angry but nodded all the same.

"Anything."

Watari's eyes were hidden under his bangs so Tsuzuki didn't see the tears beginning to sting them.

"Promise me you'll never hurt him. ever. if i find out that all of this is just to deal with you i'll testify at your trial. you got that? i swear i will."

Tsuzuki looked down, staring at his shoes as he spoke.

"I think i know why you're asking me this. so if that's why i can understand. but you really hurt my feelings Watari. i've always loved him and if i ever do something to intentionally hurt him i'll kill myself. there won't be a trial because i'll go straight to Enma-sama."

Watari nodded, turning away silently and Tsuzuki took up his lover, glancing saddly up at the figure of his friend.

"Bye."

Watari said nothing as they left, not even able to look at them.

~~~

At home Hisoka sighed softly as Tsuzuki held him closely.

The brunet kissed him deeply, arms tightning around the blonds naked body.

"Hisoka..."

Hisoka looked up into worried violet eyes.

"Hm?"

Tsuzuki pulled him even closer.

"Are you sure you want to do this?"

Hisoka nodded.

"Please don't ask me why. i don't know, maybe it's because i enjoy it. i just want to get back to being a normal couple. i don't want this to take over my life the way it did with Muraki. So please...don't ask me anymore."

Tsuzuki nodded and kissed him again, gently pushing him onto his back to straddle him.

He wasn't too surprised to see that it was rising, but felt embarassed because he wasn't hard yet.

Hisoka was here, ready to go, practically begging for it, and Tsuzuki was feeling uneasy and guilty.

He closed his eyes tightly and willed himself up before nearly attacking Hisoka's erection with his fingers, provoking a startled cry from the empath.

"What...are you...doing?! stop!"

Tsuzuki looked up into his eyes.

"you asked me to play with you first."

Hisoka was trying to catch his breath.

"you idiot! don't you masturbate?! you should know not to touch the head so roughly! That hurt."

He whimpered as he brushed Tsuzuki's hand away.

Tsuzuki frowned.

"Sorry."

Hisoka sighed softly.

"Like this..."

He reached up and began to stroke Tsuzuki, softly but quickly.

The brunet mirrored him and pushed the blond back again.

"Okay...i get it now."

Hisoka sighed softly as he relaxed.

"When i tell you to stop...that's when we start okay?"

Tsuzuki nodded.

"If we do it this way more often you'll be able to last longer."

Hisoka nodded, still wondering why Tsuzuki had done that but brushed it off as his fingers worked on him, rubbing in small circles up and down the shaft.

After a few more moments of this, Hisoka cried out, begging for him to stop.

Tsuzuki sat back and let him take a few deep breaths before slicking himself with the lube and sliding into him.

It was easier this time and that made him feel slightly better about this.

Hisoka sat up, wrapping his arms around his neck, kissing Tsuzuki roughly.

After a few minutes of this, Tsuzuki pushed him back, grabbing his wrists and holding him down.

This session didn't last very long before Tsuzuki came.

Hisoka was surprised that Tsuzuki had finished before him, but before he could say anything, the brunet went down, beginning to suck on him, provoking a cry from the blond.

"Tsuzuki!"

His body trembled and Tsuzuki secretly grinned.

With a loud cry and a shiver, Hisoka filled Tsuzuki's mouth and fell limply back against the pillows, catching his breath.

But before he could really relax, his stomach suddenly lurched and he scrambled to the bathroom.

Tsuzuki blinked, staring after him for a moment before dashing after him.

"Hisoka?!"

He found the poor blond on his knees just as he threw up for the third time.

Hisoka felt exhausted now and tears sprang to his eyes as he flushed the toilet and fell back, head hitting the tile floor rather hard.

Tsuzuki picked him up, carrying him into the kitchen where he could better rinse his mouth.

"Hisoka...are you okay? what happened?"

He waited until the blond was done with the water to press any farther.

"Hey...come on. please tell me what's wrong."

Hisoka held back a sob and held close to his lover.

"i don't know. maybe i should see Watari again."

Tsuzuki nodded and carried him back to the bedroom, laying him down gently.

He grabbed a robe for the blond and went to the phone.

Hisoka pulled the robe on just in time for Watari to walk through the door.

Tsuzuki hadn't even hung up the phone and blinked at it a moment before hanging it up.

"I want to see him alone please Tsuzuki."

He had a medical bag in hand and set it on the bed next to Hisoka. Tsuzuki nodded and left quickly, closing the door.

The older blond stared down at him for a moment.

"Hisoka."

Hisoka frowned as he sat up.

"What's going on? it's not really my buisness i know, but why are you doing this to yourself?"

Hisoka curled himself up, sighing softly as he looked at Watari.

"I don't want to be affected by it."

Watari sat beside him.

"Hisoka, do you understand how your body works?"

Hisoka nodded.

"It wasn't there that hurt. it's my stomach."

Watari sighed.

"Well for now i want to give you an exam just to make sure there's nothing causing pain that might be shooting up into your stomach. when you orgasmed did you cum?"

Hisoka's eyes widened and his cheeks flushed.

"I...don't know, ask Tsuzuki."

He couldn't believe Watari had asked him that, for medical purposes or not.

Watari gave him a look.

"You want to have sex you're going to have to be careful and if you're in any kind of pain you need to tell me. we're friends Hisoka, and i'm concerned."

Hisoka took a deep breath and layed back.

Watari thought briefly about not informing him of what he was about to do but decided not to be mean.

He reached into his bag and pulled out a syringe.

"I'm going to need to test you're semen."

Hisoka stared at him for a moment, feeling quite uncomfortable with the idea.

"W-why?!"

Watari sighed.

"Because you shouldn't be having these stomach cramps. I ignored it when we thought it was the crystal but obviously there's something else wrong. i really don't want to have to open you up just to see."

Hisoka growled but closed his eyes.

"Make it quick or i'll do it to you..."

Watari surpressed a chuckle at this and ignored the yelp when the needle punctured his sack.

"Very good. well i don't see any blood so that's a good sign. There's not much here so i'm assuming you did. i'll take it back to the lab and get back to you."

Hisoka sqirmed slightly as Watari pulled the needle back out and as soon as the blond's hand was away, Hisoka sat up, pulling the robe around his legs so tightly it looked like a skirt.

"Okay. go...."

Watari stood, placing his things back in his bag.

"And i better not find out you've been jerking off to me!"

Watari out right laughed at this.

"You're pretty but you're not my type."

And before Hisoka could respond to this, Watari was gone.

He growled.

"Tsuzuki!"

Tsuzuki came running with a glass of water.

"Hey. everything okay?"

Hisoka looked royally pissed.

"Fine...just fine..."

Tsuzuki smiled softly and brushed his fingers over the hair.

"Good. let's take a nap."

Hisoka's blush had never left his cheeks and he nodded, laying back.

Tsuzuki cuddled close to him, careful not to touch his stomach just in case and the two quickly drifted off.

~~

Hisoka thrashed in his sleep, nightmares plagueing him.

Tsuzuki was very worried, especially when he couldn't wake the boy.

Holding him to the bed seemed the only thing he could do.

"Hisoka!"

He reached for the phone, straddling the blond, but the second he put pressure on him and released his arms, he got attacked phycically atacked and thrown back.

Finally Tsuzuki got an idea.

He stood quickly, gathering up the first emotion that came to him which unfortunatly was anger, but it would have to do.

it was better than letting him continue like this.

He lunged at the blond, focusing his energy into him.

A scream erupted from his partners lips and tears came to his eyes as he finally stilled.

He lifted Hisoka slowly, sitting up on his bed, holding him close.

"I'm sorry."

He whispered.

"I'm so sorry. i didn't know what else to do."

Hisoka gave a soft moan as he began to wake slowly.

"Tsu-zuki?"

Tsuzuki was in full tears now and held him closer.

"you have no idea how bad you scared me. Are you alright? are you awake? did i hurt you?"

Hisoka looked up into his eyes.

"A little...but i think...i'll be okay."

Tsuzuki couldn't let go of him.

"What the hell were you dreaming about?! you wouldn't wake up and...gods i was so scared!"

Hisoka snuggled close and Tsuzuki pulled the blanket up over them.

"Nothing that made sense. flashes of Muraki. There was blood everywhere. Hands that reached out from nowhere and were touching me all over. A disembodied voice screaming at me that i was evil and that i would be punnished."

Tsuzuki frowned.

"I have no idea what that could mean."

Hisoka shivered.

"And then your anger...but you were angry with me. i'm bad. i've misbehaved. like i was a child. get over here or i'll punish you. why do i feel wrong? like sleeping with you was a really bad idea?"

Tsuzuki sighed softly.

"i'm sorry. it was the first emotion i could think of. i was angry because i was so scared."

He took a deep breath.

"What did Watari say?"

Hisoka looked up at him.

"he doesn't know what's wrong. but i don't think we should have sex for a few days. he had to take a semen sample..."

Tsuzuki cringed at the thought.

"well i hope there's nothing wrong."

Hisoka nodded.

"me too. but...is that okay?"

Tsuzuki nodded with a soft smile before kissing him gently.

"It's okay. we've been doing it a lot. more than i've done it in any relationship before...i just can't say no to you."

Hisoka smiled a little at this.

"Than i guess i'll just have to start telling myself no."

He snuggled close to Tsuzuki, wanting nothing more than to be held at the moment.

Tsuzuki kissed his forehead gently and sighed, tightening his arms around the blond.

~~

Several weeks went by in which time Hisoka and Tsuzuki did nothing sexual at all.

Hisoka was trying to be careful but it was clear that Tsuzuki was beginning to get frustraighted.

secretly durring this time the two had moved into together.

Hisoka had wanted to keep his apartment and Tsuzuki couldn't part with his plants, so they settled on a third place.

one that no one else knew about.

when they needed alone time they'd stay at their usual places or if they had friends over they'd maintain the appearence of being nothing more than friends.

Hisoka seemed fine with shareing a bed with Tsuzuki pletonically, but he didn't realize that Tsuzuki was having trouble with his morning routine.

The purple eyed shinigami knew very well what Hisoka was doing when he crept out of bed early in the morning and into the bathroom.

some mornings the thought of it was giving him an erection.

finally after nearly a month and a half, he couldn't take it.

Hisoka had to be better by now right?

what could be wrong with him?

he followed Hisoka this morning and something Tsuzuki would later regret happened.

Hisoka was not fully awake being five thirty in the morning and his reflexes and thinking were very slow so by the time he knew what was happening, he was on the floor under Tsuzuki.

The brunet himself wasn't fully awake and erections always took away thought of action.

When Hisoka began to cry out he didn't quite realize he was crying for Tsuzuki to stop.

When they finished Hisoka lay shivering under him, a look of hurt in his eyes.

"Tsuzuki...stop."

Tsuzuki blinked out of his stupor as he slowly began to come down and pulled away from him.

"Hisoka...?"

Hisoka lay there quietly, waiting for the cramps he knew were comeing.

"I wasn't sure if it was over or not. why didn't you stop when i asked you to? i was practically begging."

Tsuzuki stared at him.

"i'm sorry...i didn't hear you."

Hisoka stared up at him, sweat beginning to cool on his skin, making him shiver even more and Tsuzuki picked him up, pulling him in the shower.

"I've been doing this every morning so i could avoid sex. i don't like throwing up."

Tsuzuki wasn't sure what to do.

the thought that he'd all but raped his partner made him feel guilty.

"I'm...so sorry."

Tears came to his eyes.

"i've just been so pent up and stressed out and you started out like you were enjoying it..."

Hisoka sighed softly as he curled up under the hot water away from Tsuzuki.

"i enjoyed it. it felt as good as ever...but by now i'm usually doubled over in pain. i won't keep my hopes up, but i can't believe i'm still okay."

he sat up.

"i mean i'm cold but i'm not even the slightest bit queasy."

Tsuzuki smiled.

"that's good right? maybe we can start out with a regular schedual? like once a week?"

Hisoka nodded.

"i think that sounds reasonable. Today is thursday, so next thursday we'll try it again and see how it goes."

Tsuzuki nodded.

"Are you horribly upset with me?"

Hisoka shook his head.

"i know you didn't mean to. you didn't hurt me or anything. i'll be fine. it's not like i didn't really want it."

Tsuzuki pulled him close, turning the other shower head on so the water swalowed them both and Hisoka fell asleep contentedly in Tsuzuki's arms.

~~

Tsuzuki being late for work was typical.

Hisoka being late for work, raised eye brows...Hisoka and Tsuzuki both being late, raised red flags.

Both trudged in looking extremely tired, Hisoka wiping tears from his eyes.

Tatsumi called the boy into his office and Tsuzuki, who looked like he was in a very bad mood, went to their office.

"Tatsumi-san, let me explain. i'm really sorry...."

Tatsumi motioned for him to sit.

"Please do. I was becoming worried. you're three and a half hours late and we've been calling both you and Tsuzuki since eight fourty five. is everything okay?"

Hisoka looked down, unable to make eye contact.

"Tsuzuki and i got into a fight that's all. we lost track of time and between the two of us we didn't hear the phone."

Tatsumi looked concerned as he got up and closed the door.

"Hisoka...you don't need to answer this, but i want to let you know the option is available."

Hisoka looked confused but nodded.

"Normally we don't like changing up partnerships...but if he's sexually harassing you, you can go to Konoe or myself privately and we'll take care of it."

Hisoka smiled a little.

"if it was that i'd have said something by now, i promise."

Tatsumi nodded.

"So what is it then? I mean i've never seen you crying at work before."

Hisoka sighed softly.

"I'm crying because I thought i was in real trouble. When I saw the clock fifteen minutes ago I just about had a heart attack."

Tatsumi sat down again and looked up at the blond.

"May i ask, what the fight was about?"

Hisoka bit his lip.

"If you won't tell him I said something."

Tatsumi nodded and Hisoka closed his eyes.

"This last case...I...think i need a break. but that leaves Tsuzuki with all the paper work and I can't trust him to get it done. he swears he'll do it but the last time i took a vacation i was up to my neck in cases i hadn't even been on."

Tatsumi frowned and stood again, going to Hisoka's side as more tears welled in his eyes.

"If you need a break Hisoka, we'll figure something out. I can't believe no one's offered by now."

Hisoka looked up.

"I...kinda wanted most of what happened to be kept a secret."

Tatsumi bit his lip as he thought about something.

"Well..."

He spoke slowly.

"That's fine. but do you think you can handle one more case before you're break?"

Hisoka shivered.

"As long as it doesn't have anything to do with a rapist..."

Tatsumi nodded.

"Of course. it should actually be pretty simple this time. sad but simple."

Hisoka frowned at this.

"You know how Tsuzuki gets on those cases..."

Tatsumi nodded.

"It can't be helped. it's the mother this time. you need to take the children to the grandparents, and bring the mother here."

Hisoka nodded.

"At least it's not one of the children this time. That last case...even i was depressed but Tsuzuki..."

He set his jaw.

"If he hadn't been trying to keep it to himself i'd likely have gone into a coma."

Tatsumi frowned at this himself.

"If you have any trouble with him at all, please tell us. we're very worried."

Hisoka nodded.

"I will. and i promise i won't be late again."

Tatsumi nodded and went back to his papers.

"I'll call you when it's time to go."

~~~

Several weeks had passed and in that time Hisoka and Tsuzuki had slept together once a week as they had agreed.

Hisoka found something quite disturbing the second and third weeks that he shared with Tsuzuki one night.

They laid very still, Tsuzuki's arms wrapped tight around his lover as Hisoka spoke softly.

"I have a theory..."

Tsuzuki looked into his eyes.

"What's that?"

Hisoka took a deep breath.

"Last week when i got sick, there's something we did differently and i don't know if you've even noticed."

Tsuzuki sat up a bit, thinking back.

"What was different? Was i bad?"

Hisoka shook his head.

"No, not at all."

He bit his lip.

"Have you...heard me begging you to stop?"

Tsuzuki nodded.

"but i thought if you meant it you'd make me get off."

Hisoka nodded.

"I would. i don't mean it. it's a turn on. but apparently it's what makes it so i don't get sick. whatever is wrong with me is wrong in my head. if i don't pretend you're rapeing me, i feel really guilty about enjoying it and that surprisingly brings up more memories of Muraki, than acting like i don't want it. i'm...freaked out a little by it."

Tsuzuki hugged him close.

"We should talk to Watari about it."

Hisoka shook his head.

"I can't. He's a doctor, not a therapist and i can't tell him things like that!"

Tsuzuki looked concerned.

"Hisoka...if this is a problem for you, than you need to fix it. I feel terribly guilty later. I know what happened to you and i understand perfectly that it was traumatizing. Maybe you need to talk to someone about this. if it's a kink, i'm fine with it, but i don't want to hurt you."

(^^;; i finish tomorrow night...)

laustic

OMG that was hot Very Happy

Yami no Kaze

XD it's going to get hotter.

laustic

Well then, I'm definitely looking forward to it even more!

laustic

Huh, I got a topic notification for this thread and I got all excited that there was an update. Was a post deleted?

Yami no Kaze

laustic

I see. Well, I'm looking forward to reading it when you're finished!

missmarauder2

As am I! I really can't wait to finish reading it.

Yami no Kaze

yay! i have someone else reading now! lol i try to update about every other day.

missmarauder2

Sounds good to me.

laustic